…it probably won’t be i feel like i’ll be forced to at some point 😔

• questions to always be asking yourself

amendment to thought #55

happy 30th birthday

truly an iconic steph.gay moment

all of march is my birthday i’ve decided

for legal purposes no i’m not

it’s so good

definitely more than the average person.

call it a k.k. slider

— me getting my prescriptions from the mail box

2025 is not off to the most promising start… but there’s still plenty of time to turn things around

this isn’t a novel or revolutionary thought, i just had to watch both of them with my parents this week.

that’s amazing

i’m not subtle.

worth tho.

place ur bets now

also me: “embedding ‘Comic Sans’ in an HTML file.”

hilarious

…no I don’t wanna date Grimes.

yes, this is the same fucking thought as last week i haven’t moved on yet

i hate this fucking country

#just3amthings

— me, about a bag of weed

like all of it

it was actually 6am 🙃

smh pay some respect 😔

like, how many dimensions are you thinking in now, 5? we need to be at like, at least 12.

callback

this post is dog girl slander

yes, i would brat the US Attorney’s Office

— real thoughts in my brain

that, for legal reasons, i have no intentions of acting on

😎

on the one hand, using long pass phrases is more secure because i’m introducing more entropy, but on the other hand, it’s less secure because i think i’m hilarious and really wanna tell people.

— me, in my living room

(lovingly)

for just so many reasons

this thing fucking sucks so I volunteered to fix it because i hate myself

also

this thing annoyed me so I didn’t do it which caused this other thing to happen so how do we fix the thing that annoys me so that that other thing doesn’t happen again

he’s just a cool dude

is todays (probably reoccurring) shroomspost

Sorry, I’m GAY!

me: trainpilled is when you think taking an 18 hour train ride to Portland is better than a 2 hour flight.

cries in money

— a thing, I said

— me to myself after walking to the living room and picking an oven mitt up off the floor

— me trying to convince myself that I’m fine, actually

my hair is finally long enough that it can tastefully cover my nipples

what?

it’s 2024 why are we still running applications in non-containerized environments

— actual note I made about some of our infrastructure at work

that makes it better, right?

just let me sleep forever

god i have so many posts on here that are slightly concerning - i’m fine though

lisp is cooler than all of us

😎

— philosophy from One Piece

i’m not going crazy and/or losing my mind, i swear

— me @ chrome after it crashes

i have this thought too much

no i’m fine really, i’m making music about it instead of actually doing it

anyways, let’s all love lain

i dunno this is a real question sign up if you’re interested

no context

I get making an IDE is hard but like come on

this is just my existence

this is a joke pls do not 5150 me

spoiler: the game ends with the girl shooting her therapist and then herself but I swear that wasn’t the relatable part

— me out loud @ my coworkers when I’m working from home and no one can hear me

my brain: but what if you’re a stupid loser who should kill yourself?

thanks brain, very cool

It’s so nice to just have a place where I can throw all the random shit that’s going on in my life and it’s all my own*.

*this shit is hosted on a cloud server I rent and do not own/fully control so I should probably invest in some backup strategies for the inevitable time this server shits itself a fat one and dies 💩

but fr tho I’m chillin I just can’t stop these thoughts

also me: Hell yeah I had a great time breaking down and crying last time let’s do it again!

— thoughts from a totally normal and emotionally healthy individual

Context

I swear I have more than 2…

that should give you a good idea of the state of my apartment right now

and, by proxy, my current mental state

I’m thriving

can’t believe that one hasn’t made it on the website before

— me trying to find the tab I was just on in one of my 50,000 open browser tabs

uggh fuck

— me, about everything, all the time

— listening to an engineering manager talk about GitHub Copilot while on just like, way more shrooms than I really should be when I’m ostensibly supposed to be working

Edit: might redact this later, take ur screenshots now for posterity

Currently soliciting opinions, submit your feedback now!

Cuz I do

• on Cyberpunk 2077

No, I don’t have a problem.

It’s better that way.

#dysphoria

— me @ my testicles

This game sucks

Why did I put myself in this situation where I have to think about performing femininity for a week? Oh I know, it’s cuz I wanted to ride the fucking train. Love trains.

I’m already trans, I’ve got enough shit to deal with, now I got think about the first and second 2AM? Honestly transphobic.

So I’ve been moving over to a fresh new laptop that doesn’t have ~7 years of junk on it and today I had to install rustup so I could install Rust so I could install alacritty so I could install homebrew so I could install pyenv so I could install Python so I could install pipx so I could install yt-dlp so I could download this video so I could use it as a sample to make this. Also I used hombrew to install ffmpeg so I could convert the video to an audio file.

Proof: this whole fucking website.

Yeah, right.

Edit: No, wrong. Feeling wrong is wrong is wrong, actually.

• me to my other coworkers about our company’s “Mental Wellness” benefits covering 6 therapy sessions

• a not infrequent mood

Edit: these plans derailed by a trip to the ER

oh, I need to talk to my therapist about magnets

Edit: and Steven Universe

I know I’m late to this but I never played the game, like a true Sonic fan

- me, about something I probably should worry about

yeah no I’m fine, why do you ask?

There are some things I know I feel from the very depths of my soul and one of them is

Fuck TurboTax

this post brought to you by: mushrooms

gay

brain think lot things no make word describe brain thought much effort

How do I answer? My default state is hating myself and feeling like shit, but I’m not trying to broadcast that to the world. So most of the time I’ll say “good” or “fine” or “alright”. Maybe I should be more honest about it.

but hey I’m here and still kickin’

I mean just look at them

fuck

I refuse to elaborate further.

sometimes I wake up and I just can’t be happy

it’s like the part of my brain that can experience joy is turned off

or not turned off, but like trapped, locked away.

and the best i can possibly feel is nothing

an important question

we should all experience ego death and become one in the soul soup

trans rights